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The End of Fat-Shaming Myself

Be proud of who you are

Tweet it: Be Proud of who you are and not ashamed of how someone else sees you.

I’ve had this post on the back-burner for almost three weeks, not really knowing how to say all I want to say without being overly wordy, sentimental, melodramatic, awkward, or not making any sense at all.

Like that sentence.

But at the end of July, a study on the effects of fat-shaming was published and suddenly people are flabbergasted to find out that fat-shaming contributes to increased obesity, and not healthier habits after all, because science now says so. To that I say…duh. Did we really need a study to tell us that weight bias and discrimination contributes to depression, lower self-esteem, self-loathing and extra trips through the fast-food drive thru?

It’s called a shame spiral for a reason, people.

Dirty looks from ladies in boutique clothing stores because I’m shopping with my size 2 friends and I clearly don’t belong in the store.

Plus size sections in the basement corners of large department stores.

No plus size clothing available at all.

Calling it plus size in the first place.

The lady on the crowded bus who loudly proclaimed I was too fat to sit next to her.

Let’s not even talk about online dating. I’ll save that one for later.

I could list more, but there’s another side to this that I really want to write about, and that is that on far more occasions than not, I’m the one fat-shaming myself because of what I think other people think of me based on actual and perceived prior experiences.

This sentiment often comes to mind recently:


 Tweet it: What other people think of you, is none of your concern.

As I get older, it’s something I’m learning to embrace, but trying to rid myself of years worth of negative self-talk is a hard (although worthwhile) battle. The negative thoughts are ingrained in my attitude, and they are the easiest to hold on to when I feel like I’m being attacked, forgotten, left-out, or ignored because of my weight.

My first recollection of being seen by others as “bigger” was back when I was 12 or 13. I was the pitcher for my little league soft-ball team and during one particular game, the other team’s coach decided to have a screaming fit about my team cheating and lying about my age because I was “so much bigger” than all the other girls. He even demanded to see my birth certificate. My coach kept me in, and we won, but that doesn’t change how the experience integrated itself into my psyche.

Three things to note:

  1. I was actually one of the youngest on the team.
  2. I was not overweight. I had boobs and hips and yes, I did look like a 16 year old, but it’s the first time I can remember it being publicly pointed out BY AN ADULT MALE that I was different. And since I was younger, and bigger than all the ‘normal’ girls my age, it meant I didn’t fit in.
  3. I’d like to find that man now and kick him in the shins. Only higher.


This image of myself as “bigger” carried itself with me into high school, and even though I didn’t let it stop me from doing things back then, to this day I still say, “I was the ‘biggest’ girl on my dance and cheer-leading squads.” What that really means, is that the other girls were shorter than I was, with naturally smaller frames, but in my own mind I was still “bigger,” and therefore, fat.

Then my depression hit, and I spent my entire 20’s trying to claw my way up and out of my dizzying, damaging spiral of self-hate and fat-shaming.

I’m not good enough…

I don’t deserve…

No one likes me…

If I were just skinny…

The saying ‘sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me’, is a big fat lie. Words do hurt, and I am particularly exceptional at using them against myself.

The truth is that I am overweight. This is a fact, and right now it is what it is. But it has taken me a very long time to realized that it is not who I am, and I am going to continue to work on caring far more about what I think of myself, and less on what anyone else thinks (unless you think I’m awesome, in which case you are totally right).

This is the end of my own personal fat-shaming — join me?


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  • Reply Maureen August 20, 2013 at 5:44 am

    I relate to this post a little too much. Thank you for writing such a great piece. I have slowed the person fat shaming down in the past year, but there are times when it creeps out again.

  • Reply Carrie @ August 20, 2013 at 5:56 am

    It baffles me when people need science to tell them something they already know. I honestly have a hard time rationalizing the ‘I love me’ mentality with the ‘I could lose a few pounds’ mentality. And then I write something like that and realize how silly it sounds. Such a mental struggle. Great post!

  • Reply MollieJoy August 20, 2013 at 6:41 am

    Fabulously written. It’s always a struggle to fight back the internal voice that whispers the negative, but as you said, absolutely worth the battle. I can relate totally to that. Love, love, love yourself. You’re so beautiful.

  • Reply Morgan @ Peaches, Please! August 20, 2013 at 7:24 am

    Thank you for writing this. I started crying as I was reading it because I completely understand where you are coming from.

  • Reply Robin @ The Balanced Life August 20, 2013 at 9:06 am

    Came across this post through twitter. Such a great post. Thank you for being such a strong, positive example!

    I write a lot about this kind of thing on my website and will be sharing this in my “link love” series soon :)

    Cheers to you girl.

  • Reply GiGi Eats Celebrities August 20, 2013 at 9:25 am

    <3 I love this!!! I really don't think anyone should EVER CARE what others think of them, because in the end, other people really don't matter ONE BIT!! It's all about you and how you feel about yourself. If you feel good, you will radiate confidence, which will have others speaking POSITIVELY about you!

  • Reply Abby August 20, 2013 at 1:20 pm

    This is a great post, Tiffany. I relate to pretty much all of it and I’m glad we are both moving in a positive direction. You’re beautiful!

  • Reply Rachel @ Undercover Diva: A Sitcom August 20, 2013 at 5:33 pm

    I firmly stand by that “what other people think of you is none of your concern.” That’s how I live my life. I do not care what others think about me and it’s definitely freed me from a lot of negativity! Good for you for moving forward in a positive direction. Weight does not define us! If it did, then the world would be a bland and boring place. Good luck <33

  • Reply Clare @ Fitting It All In August 26, 2013 at 8:57 am

    You are such an inspiration! I’m in the middle of a tough recovery process that includes gaining weight and becoming “bigger” than my peers, and hearing your mindset is so helpful.

  • Reply Sadie August 26, 2013 at 12:27 pm

    Fabulous piece.

    For me, ‘fat shaming’ is the only thing that got me off my ass and moving. For so many years, people told me I was beautiful, that I wasn’t overweight/obese, etc when in reality I was slowly killing myself. Even when I was 280 pounds, nobody encouraged me to lose weight. Now I’m down to 244, and my next goal is 200. Without some sort of shame, I will never get there.

  • Reply Mabelle @ Dance, Love, Dine August 31, 2013 at 6:13 pm

    Love your post. I had similar experiences growing up. Family members and peers telling me I was overweight. Funny thing is that, in retrospect, when I look at pics of myself when I was younger I realized I was NOT overweight and I was simply a healthy, beautiful, young girl simply growing up. I think is sad how we let the opinions of others get in to our heads. Thankfully, we grow out of that and eventually evolve in to someone who sees their own internal and external beauty. The opinions of other becomes irrelevant :)

  • Reply Alyssa September 2, 2013 at 10:43 pm

    Hi girly,
    What a thoughtful post. I also really need to work on the shaming aspect, especially the voice lately that says “I’ll never be able to do this.. why bother?” It’s so hard when the voice you hear day in and day out, your own, is not up to the challenge. I need to work on re-routing that voice to be one that’s more like “It’s ok to be frustrated, but it’s not ok to give up.” Too bad we can’t just like record other people’s motivation and willpower and loop it in our head :)

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  • Reply Stephanie April 5, 2015 at 1:19 pm

    Came across this article today when I desperately needed it. On my way to a friends house for dinner and trying to quiet the voices of my mind. The ones that say I’m too fat to eat in front of others they’ll laugh at a fat girl eating, or I’m too fat to deserve x-y-z. You name it. that inner voice torments me with it. I could resonate a lot with your story of that man calling you out. I was also tall as a kid and physically bigger than my friends. Because I was really strong I used to feel like a monster or a freak. I equated being strong with being huge and masculine and I hated it. Your post reminded me that it’s my own mind that makes this stuff up and that even if other people believe it about me it is none of my business. Thanks for writing. Xoxo

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